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Apr. 19th, 2006 @ 09:00 am
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Cry love
Cry war
Cry innocence
That is lost forever more
Cry joy
Cry thief
Cry beautiful
That is just beyond belief somewhere
Cry at the end
Cry cause it all begins again
Here you are
And so am I
And we cry
Cry alone
Cry to me
Cry freedom
Then let yourself be free
To shed the tears
That have to flow
To hold somebody close to you
And then to let them go
Cry at the end
Cry cause it all begins again
Here you are
And so am I
And we cry
a peace... for so long i felt it... and for him to say it... it's relief more than pain. and now im sure... it wasnt meant, not now....
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i just saw get rich or die tryin
and i loved it
and
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"Everything will be okay in the end, if its not okay its not the end" |
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Nov. 9th, 2005 @ 05:44 pm
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lately i've been really inspired to forgive. how many times have my friends, my parents, my God forgiven me? and on such a larger scale? I have the best friend a girl could ask for... someone who builds me up and brings me into a new mindset everytime i talk to her. She's so understanding and forgiving. She's such a breath of fresh air.
i've come to realize in the past year or so... the future is unstable, things you've defined yourself by can change in the blink of an eye and you just can't hold on. i've learned to ride the waves and let like take me where it will. i truely believe God's plan will be worked out in my life regaurdless of my efforts- so why worry?
i just want to help others, especially those i see on campus who look so upset, the ones you know are hurting deep. i want to show them someone cares- i care.
i want to see people through God's eyes not my own. it's such a mind opening thing to redefine a person in the mindset of God.
i've got so much work to do... physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, everything... and you know, i'll always have work to do. so will you... so live in the moment, look around you and reach out to this world you pass by everyday. say what you feel... tell that one person what you've held back for so long.
God loves you... as trite as it may sound.listenin' to: john legend- take it slow |
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Aug. 11th, 2005 @ 01:39 am
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maybe gainesville wont be half bad.
i really wish i would've saved what Melisa said about me on AIM the other day dangit, it would be great to post... the nicest thing she's ever said.
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i used so fully support anyone who came into sports authority wearing a gator's tee... typically i'd shout "go gators" or even give them a joke targeted at how pathetic the FSU is.
but let's be honest. and if any of my fellow gators read this, my apologies. but again, let's be honest, i hate uf. it's probably the worst place in the universe. a bunch of kids stuck on themselves in a town with nothing more to offer than I75 and beer. and for some reason, in august it becomes the hottest place on earth- where coincidentally you must wait for 45 minutes, in the sun, to get onto a bus full of sweaty college boys with there armpits in your face, who are all the while checking you out because they think they have a chance. seems they've finally developed some self cofedence because now- unlike in highschool- they have friends through their cute little fraternities that consume their lives and give losers a shot a being accepted. (save SigEp) Although i must say i do appreciate the cleanliness they keep up (if not within the house at least with their appearences). So back to gainesville. it sucks... and i know im going to hate it when i go back. even more so than before. Now that it's not new, it's lost any appeal it might have potentially had. i know complaining and ranting gets me no where -accept maybe looking like a complete pessimist... but hey it's my journal
anyway... im out... its 2:30 am and i have a date at 9am... which means i'll be waking up at 8. and i usually require 10+ hours of sleep a night.
if it wasn't for matt i'd be sleeping. im really considering things there. wow if that's not ambiguous.
i didn't do it on purpose
ksdfj;slkdfjsd
it's late.
oh yeah. then my father and i went to see the wedding crashers ---> great movie to see with your dad's girls... highly recommended.
Jul. 29th, 2005 @ 02:13 am
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Let Paul's words be a reminder to worship always: "Work hard and cheerfully at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people" (Colossians 3:23, NLT).
It's difficult to worship God sometimes. But even though following God's way can be hard, the question is, "Is His way worth it?" If you can say He's worth it, then it's worship.
No words spoken in a debate can ever match the impact of seeing a life changed by the power of God. This is why Paul says, "Live a life filled with love for others, following the example of Christ, who loved you and gave himself as a sacrifice to take away your sins" (Ephesians 5:2, NLT).
Have you been trying to find the perfect "sales pitch" for Christianity? Maybe more words aren't what's needed--they're not adequate for this kind of message. Maybe what really needed is a life lived like Jesus.
"You, O LORD, have never abandoned anyone who searches for you" (Psalms 9:10, NLT).
Jun. 24th, 2005 @ 12:31 pm
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the guilt had been tormenting me for long enough, I finally broke down to call you...
and call again...
and one more time...
your phone is apperently disconnected.
MAYBE YOU COULD TRY CALLING ME!!!???!!!???
Jun. 21st, 2005 @ 08:14 am
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so here I am, doing my homework because I FAILED A TEST AT FAU!!!
gosh... idiot!!! I belong in a garbage can!!! I'm trash!!!
I'm trying this whole no carb thing... heard it works well for some-
I never really liked bread anyway.
I played raquetball yesterday and now my arm is sore.
Matt is mad at me and I wish he wouldn't be.
I'm full from olives and tuna.
Jun. 20th, 2005 @ 01:23 pm
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</tt>don't ride bikes with only one wheel or this will happen</tt>
http://www.collegehumor.com/?image_id=155774
Jun. 14th, 2005 @ 03:23 pm
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i feel like this is just the begining.
Jun. 9th, 2005 @ 12:35 pm
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they (the sports aurthority) changed my hours... now i come in at three and only get a 30 min break. at first i was upset in the cut back of my time...
but now i REALLY like it.
i get to come home and chill
its like a 3 hour break in my day.
i went to go pay my tuition at fau today (so i could get my Owl Card and go to the gym) and discoverd my credit card was denied.
uh oh
other than that, life is good. God is good. i'm finally starting to fall into my place. i love my life, i love fort lauderdale, i love my job, i love my coworkers, i love my boyfriend... uhh like my boyfriend, love my friends, love my spanish class and i love my family.
mmm, can't wait for my hair to be short!!
Jun. 9th, 2005 @ 12:29 pm
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...cut my hair short?
Jun. 8th, 2005 @ 01:53 pm
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super glue is still glue
wake up, go to school, go to work, come home and do homework, go to sleep. repeat.
i'm ready for a game of uno
and a hot bath
some chocolate or mcdonalds
a movie with my dad
to see matt again
so spend sunrise to sunset enjoying the beach
for a pina colada
to see heaven
for a fresh new start
to love life again.
GO GATORS. GO HEAT. GO ME.
Jun. 3rd, 2005 @ 01:46 pm
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| » Thanks Melisa |
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2 Thessalonians 2:10-12
"They perish because they refused to love the TRUTH and so be SAVED. For this reason GOD sends them a powerful DELUSION so that they will believe the LIE. And so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness."
Jun. 2nd, 2005 @ 08:08 am
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I have so many things to consider... so many things weighing heavily on my heart.
One minute I've decided Christianity is so much more than it appears at surface value and that I am ready for a life-long commitment and devotion, then the next I'm contemplating going out partying and hearing stories about my parent's past and wondering if maybe they turned to religion as therapy for their failing marriage but now have fallen captive under it's spell.
Maybe time will give me strength to push forward.
Then I stumble onto this site called the apologetics (or something like that) and wow, what a stumbling block. I've just finished reading "A Case for Faith" and am now half way through "A Case for Christ" and I was so excited about finding evidence and knowledge for Christ in these books. Evidence that rang true after years of my questioning, disbelieving and disproving of the whole thing... But then I go onto this site (that I landed after a LJ search for 'Jesus'- go figure) and started to read all these intellegent arguments against Christianity and then in a split second, all the doubt I thought I had conquered is resurrected. Things I haven't even considered myself, things that make sense and things that rip the little faith I have out of my heart. Should I not allow myself to look at it in fear that I might loose faith? Or do I read it and hope that God will still prove himself real to me? And if it is so true why is this so troubling to me?
I have so many questions... I really wish I had someone with a strong faith and understanding of God to talk to.
May. 31st, 2005 @ 01:42 pm
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Unsure of yourself
you stand divided now.
Which road will lead you there
Last time you fell and you hit hard
Your wounds have healed by now
But you still see your scars yeah
But it’s not the way it use to be right now
You come so far to just let this go my friend
The same way you did the last time
You’ll break when you fall
Don’t make the same mistakes you did all over
You’ve got to believe in yourself this time
Live on, live it up today
This life’s your cup
So drink it up I say, yeah
Say it’s mine so give it all up to me now
And walk that line, don’t let this go, don’t go out the
Same way you did the last time
Your break when you fall
Don’t make the same mistakes you did all over
You’ve got to believe in yourself this time
Life’s your cup, life’s your cup
Drink it up
Life’s your cup, life’s your cup
The same way you did the last time
You’ll break when you fall
Don’t make the same mistakes you did all over
You got to believe in yourself this time
May. 30th, 2005 @ 11:08 pm
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What's Crazier:
Living and even dying for a cause
you believe in,
Or just running the rat race
until you die?
May. 29th, 2005 @ 11:05 am
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In my humble 19 years of life, I've come to realize... that as much as I crave time off from school, work, and daily life- just to sit around and do nothing... some tranquil beach setting or even ice cream and a tv screen... it's not what I need. If I'm not out there living, learning, making a small difference in this world then I'm not at all satisfied with life. Lately I've been so busy with school and work... and then there's so much to get accomplished on my downtime... (like planning a wedding!) But when I take a second and realize all that I'm accomplishing and all the good that will come out of it, it's all worth it. And how true is it, that those times are the times filled with all of the greatest memories... the stories you'll tell forever and jokes that you still use today... they all come from a time that was hectic. A time that, in that very second, was exhausting. I always look back the years in highschool when I woke up every morning at 6 and didn't make it home until 10 from all that I had going on. It wasn't always fun, but in retrospect it was the better part of my youth.
Also, I had this amazing revalation the other day. Pain, suffering, hurting, heartbreak. What do they all equal?? Well, for the most part, after time heals the situation, you come out happier or stronger or more appriciative, etc. I once heard a quote "anything that doesn't kill you makes you stronger"... and I never forgot that. I've pretty much decided that this truth should become a law of human nature. And here's the main point... God created us- in His likeness. We are like Him to some extent and this whole rule of "no pain no gain" is something He completely and fully understands. He knew that, in order to be in line with the way we work, he had to follow this 'law'. And that's exactly what He did. He sent His Son to be a human sacrifice and endure all of the undeserved pain of the entire world, and with that come the perfect gift of forgiveness- granting us the ability to be pure and thus being able to speak to God, being able to be in his presence. I've just always struggled with- Why death on the cross?? Why not a snap of His majestic fingers or a big flash in the sky with thunder and lightening? Why would God cause himself/his son pain when he could've easily done it some other way. It just hit me like a ton of bricks the other day.
As did alot of things. And alot of tears... God. He's like nothing else we could ever experience.
So church tomorrow morning and then the beach and then work... boo... but hey
whatevvvva works.
May. 29th, 2005 @ 12:30 am
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YEAH GO HEAT!
May. 14th, 2005 @ 11:16 pm
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